emancipated dissonance from the desk of renee ann

emancipated dissonance

Tuesday, February 26, 2008

influenza is proof.

i was never addicted to coffee, only to sleep. denying myself sleep means intense and life-disrupting withdrawal symptoms without some sort of substitute.

coffee is my nicotine patch.

but straight up sleeping 14 hours a day is far superior. also, fevers make your dreams more fun.

i think all the people who are actually good already tried out for american idol once or realized that it's not the way to any sort of respected success even for the winner, thus the pool of talent has shrunk tragically. i can tell all of this by what i can hear of my roommates watching it downstairs. as a secondary result, paula abdul has become EVEN MORE irrelevant, as if that was possible.

a response to kevin: i did not see any of the oscars or any of the best picture nominees, or even any of the best group-of-nerdy-looking-sound-guys-who-bought-expensive-looking-glasses-for-the-occasion award nominees. thanks to your scathingly humorous review of it all, now i suppose i won't have to.

nothing tastes good except water right now.

(i'm obviously procrastinating)

analogical reasoning and groupthink in vietnam war decision-making? i individualthink not. or DO i???

[edit 1: kerri miller interviewed dr. oz?]
[edit 2: emily haines gets away with this lyric:

drive to work to pay for this car
buy this car to drive to work
drive to work to pay for this car
buy this car to drive to work
drive to work to pay for this car
buy this car to drive to work
drive to work to pay for this car
buy this car to drive to work
drive to WORK!

and makes me feel bad about my future life.]

posted by renee 7:33 PM

Wednesday, February 20, 2008

i thought i might be getting sick. but it took a three digit number on a thermometer to prove it to me.

and then i thought about clinical reasoning. and then i wanted to go to sleep.

posted by renee 11:09 PM

Thursday, February 14, 2008

does anybody know any good bands that fit alphabetically between Jose Gonzales and Justice?

because my musical zone was just demolished by the shift from Broken Arrows on his Veneer album and the first track from D.A.N.C.E.

it was like getting all nice and toasty in a jacuzzi outside in the winter, sitting up out of the water a little bit to cool off and having someone pour a bucket of ice water over your head.

an experience i'd rather not repeat. thus, something must be added to ease the adjustment. suggestions?

posted by renee 11:14 PM

Wednesday, February 13, 2008

too much talk of epistemology
makes my head feel fuzzy
no matter how big you talk
i don't believe you are brave enough to question everything at once
you've just learned to talk the talk of vulnerability
to not reveal your bias and your faith (in whatever)
because to stop believing in everything unprovable
would be to stop existing
(not to mention the fact that believing in methods of proving is its own kind of faith)
but it does seem to be necessary to take one thing at a time
and hold it at arms length for awhile
to be willing to subject it to testing
because if you won't, how can you ever be sure?

also: this whole question of living in the moment is solved by music.

posted by renee 11:54 PM

Tuesday, February 12, 2008

Question: Who do you think is easier to trick: a man or a machine?

Comment: I sometimes think that if I were a boy I would be good at doing things like asking a girl out. But judging by how sweaty my palms get when I do something as tiny as go visit the office some guy i have a crush on with a reasonable excuse, I may have overestimated myself. Especially given the effect on men of female cuteness, I might turn out to be pretty chicken after all.

Thought: Pretty sure I want a PhD. Pretty sure.

posted by renee 4:43 PM

Friday, February 08, 2008

either i'm getting old or myspace REALLY sucks.

come to this:

posted by renee 11:02 PM

Thursday, February 07, 2008

thoughts of the day:

1.) what if Google became a nuclear power?

2.) giving up something for lent is what you do after you failed to give it up for your new year's resolution. the timing and commitment level involved make this a psychologically beneficial arrangement. you are not totally devoid of willpower, only of enough to make sustainable change.

3.) it is fun when you want something to happen, and then it does.

posted by renee 3:46 PM

Wednesday, February 06, 2008

after feeling completely alienated at my precinct caucus, which compounds my overall increasing alienation due to a composite worldview which no one on earth seems to share, i am starting my own party, of which i may be the only member. however, at least at that point, i'd be able to feel like i'm doing the right thing.

the party will be called "Party for Everyone Staying Alive, and Being Glad About It."

the platform will consist of the following:
---the United States of America will do its very best to avoid you being killed, whether you are born or not, convicted of a crime you may or may not have done, a citizen of a different country, a muslim, a jew, black, gay, a woman, or an illegal alien. also there will be severe penalties for anyone responsible for the threatening of your safety or the carrying out of harm against you. these penalties shall not include, however, the offender's own death.
---in order to increase the odds of your survival, assault weapons will not be legally available and possession of them by anyone will be punished as described above.
---during the time that you are alive in the United States of America, you will not die of a preventable disease because of being uninsured.
---also, you will be given a decent education, as will your peers, in order to improve the quality of life for the average person, even if it is at the expense of a portion of the luxury of the most affluent.
---in this United States, you will not be punished for being poor, for bearing a child after an accidental pregnancy instead of aborting it, for being born into a country where your parents have not obtained legal residency, or for talking on the telephone or checking out library books.
---if you have mental health or chemical dependency issues, there will be enough beds and caseworkers to accommodate you. there will be a way to get your meds paid for and someone to make sure you're staying on track.
---the jails will not be full of people who did things which harmed only themselves, who then become life-long law-breakers due to the inaccessibility of legitimate employment, housing, and education during and after their incarceration.
---we will do our best to make sure that life can continue on this planet by being careful with it - not in a politically charged misread of real science, but purposefully, and with honorable intention.
---in places in the world where the weak are preyed on by the politically and militarily powerful, we will involve ourselves quickly in diplomacy. in places in the world where two equally powerful groups are facing conflict, we will stay out of the way until clear injustice or personal stake make prudent anything otherwise. we will not, motivated by unreasonable fear, available political will, pride, or ethnocentrism, ever involve ourselves directly in combat ever again.
---we will not torture people. this is not television.
---we will account for wildly racist policies in american history by being mindful of their consequences as they live on today and by being meticulous about outlining potential outcomes of future policies, keeping in mind the danger of adverse outcomes.
---the economy will be encouraged toward prosperity, keeping tight reins only on the parts of the market that have the biggest potential for misleading, or taking advantage of vulnerable populations.

i have no snazzy finish. i was really angry before. i calmed down a little bit. that all just poured out, so i'm sure i'll have to go back through and change things. but i'm pretty sure i believe all that, and that's the best i can do for tonight.

i guess i'm an independent, then.

unrelated: the national and modest mouse are going on tour..... in support of the new REM album.... REM? aren't those guys, like, DEAD by now? i mean... not only are they alive, it seems, but they have made a new album. and are touring for it? with the national? seriously?

posted by renee 1:56 AM

Monday, February 04, 2008

on football, or something else
who looks like he's winning to you?

posted by renee 12:26 PM


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my band(mates)
thomas built the wall
casey on the drums

other friends
joa jean
nate t
nate b
the MAN i hate
my ex-neighbor

some i wish were my friends

music i listen to
band of horses
zoe keating
rilo kiley
(jenny lewis)
mr 1986
regina spektor
iron & wine
the new pornographers
radio on
the combo
emiliana torrini
sigur ros
nickel creek
trampled by turtles
the hold steady
the decemberists
del the funky homosapien
death cab
tv on the radio

the guys that review it
jason (in a kilt)
peter c

and the places to hear it
the fine line
varsity theater
the 400 bar
first avenue

found magazine
my pottery teacher
my favorite designer
aesthetic apparatus
the friendly stegosaurus

railroad illusions
we'll go sit on a coal car
bask in the soft light
and dream of a someday
simpler than this one

take a walk with me tonight, my dear
away from complications
away from fluorescent lights

we'll go lay on a rooftop
breathe in the sweet smoke
and talk of a place that’s
so far from this one

take a walk with me tonight, my dear
away from complications
away from conditioned air

we'll get lost under covers
smile at our trite words
and fall for a vision
so far from the truth

take a walk with me tonight, my dear
away from complications
away from the flightless facts

LEMUR is the answer!!