Friday, November 30, 2007
i have listened to pieces of the new rilo kiley album before. now i am attempting to get through the whole thing.
but it is worth a whole post to just say that the fact that this album is:
a.) the way it is
b.) by rilo kiley
pisses me off.
i have no desire to futher justify that position. i think i might turn it off, because the longer i listen, the more pissed off i get.
it's a good thing i didn't have to actually review this album, because that would be all i care to say.
posted by renee 2:52 PM
it's not a matter of thinking
only a matter of time
my typing fingers, sometimes, are connected to no brain whatsoever
posted by renee 12:23 AM
Tuesday, November 27, 2007
i am afraid that existence does exist
and so do i, and my mind
but that all these things i see
pieces that i can't force to fit together
really don't match up at all
this gathering of perspectives
facts and feelings
is not moving me toward filling in the missing spaces
adding more bumps than there are grooves
expanding the edge pieces to too great an area
a fifth right angle corner
it makes the universe seem unstable
but today, walking through the chemistry building
i thanked God for all the things that are of Him
which people are moved to study
and even if they aren't all moved to worship the source
by their discoveries, their search for explanations
i am moved by it
and we are all trying so hard, all the time
to be something that makes sense
mostly, though, just to be something
so hold your brother up
we're all the same
except in how much we know it
posted by renee 1:06 PM
Tuesday, November 20, 2007
it is interesting how many completely wacko people run for public office.
seriously. this is democracy.
also: i began a new knitting project due to the class i have to sit through for the next two and a half hours. there comes a point in one's education where professors are no longer forgiven for a terrible class just because they have good intentions. thus, no new knowledge will be obtained, but new mittins will, which is at least as valuable.
i think i might also go get a sandwich as the dinner i brought was apparently insufficient.
posted by renee 5:49 PM
Tuesday, November 13, 2007
At that place
Where minutes mattered
And the volume of the radio
They researched colors of paint
Ergonomics of chairs
Installed indirect lighting
To increase productivity
I thought a lot
About what matters to me
When I left that place
At exactly 5:30 in the afternoon
Or later, at time-and-a-half
I tried to widen
Open my eyes
Increase from the smallness
Of my self in a cubicle
To be the size of a human being again
Now, in my new life
I am too big
Protons and electrons barely holding
Ideas threatening the tenuous boundaries
Of my already dangerous expansion
The practice of desiring
Of seeking meaning and importance
Developed over the period of my reduction
Becomes a threat
Unreined it pulls me into perilous orbit
Around a hundred things
Now I am faced with the responsibility
From the great pool of what matters to me
What is important
Which is a much more difficult question
And leads to a whole lot of not deciding
It’s getting to be time, soon now
To shrink back down
To be the size of a human being again
p.s. they are playing the soundtrack from the life acquatic at the purple onion. i just realized how these songs all go together. awesome.
posted by renee 3:21 PM
Monday, November 12, 2007
if there were any possible way to fund/justify this, i would be nowhere else on the second weekend of may
plus: more bands than i realize have released albums recently. so, sorry, everyone, but you will not be getting Christmas presents this year.
posted by renee 10:44 PM
after completing an assigned diagram of my most valuable networking assets in my leadership class today i realized two things:
i may never get a job, regardless of whether or not that is the point.
most of my networking efforts are in the arena of minnesotan indie rockers, which procludes the non-profit/political arena in its entirety. however, last night, i got myself hooked up with a project which opens up many new exciting musical doors (think broken social scene, but minneapolisified). i'm far more comfortable advertising myself as a cellist, or whatever, than marketing my job skills to everyone i meet. i'd rather get to be your friend over a microbrew at a dirty bar than over a martini in heels and lipstick. i don't feel like i'm faking it with musicians even though, probably.... well.... no. i am and i know it, but it's the kind of faking i like.
but successful indie rockers are almost never successful in getting "real" jobs or climbing the corporate or political ladder. so what the heck am i doing getting my MPP if that's what i really want? is this always going to feel like the kind of faking it that is uncomfortable? i like learning what i'm learning. i like talking politics with people. i just don't think i can pander. or be consciously strategic in my relationships. i happen to know a lot of really fantastic people that i genuinely care about who are doing interesting things and will likely become great successes. i guess i just have to hope that's enough.
or become a joiner now, and quit all those bands. sigh.
posted by renee 12:28 PM
Saturday, November 10, 2007
a. georgia o'keefe
b. dan olson
c. steve carell
d. stef weinkauf
e. all of the above
i believe the answer is obvious. that was the best day ever.
posted by renee 2:46 AM
Wednesday, November 07, 2007
there is a thin band
between too serious
and not serious enough
which i find tolerable
except: that i am trying to both remove myself from the grit of reality and fully participate in it at the same time. but a meta-life might not be a life at all.
i see a poster advertising a speech: political ideology and judicial behavior in chile and spain. i think, "so what?" because that guy is either a good dad or he isn't. he either enjoys his students' tough questions or responds always pridefully. he either loves his job or hates it.
so i don't want to see the speech, but i wouldn't mind talking to him about the other things.
this is what political scientists don't understand about constituent apathy. and what doctors don't understand about patient noncompliance. and what lawmakers don't understand about political will. and what academics don't understand about the 100 pages of reading they assign each week and don't test you over.
because to normal, everyday people, real life is more important than voting, taking your pill, writing a letter to your senator (even if you DO care!), and burying your nose in peer-reviewed scholarly journals. and what "real life" means to you makes all the difference in the choices you make of when to participate. it's about values.
trying to both have them and understand them might be impossible. it makes the zealous participants seem mindless and the dispassionate observers seem heartless.
i'd like to keep my mind and my heart and some laughter and a side of sarcasm. i'd like to work hard and eat well and love fearlessly. i'd like to understand without turning into a cynic. i'd like to analyze, but still believe.
.....amazing what a couple days of immersing oneself in an economics textbook can do to a person.
posted by renee 1:28 PM
Sunday, November 04, 2007
Google is a fantastic company. It is making lots and lots of money doing complicated technology related things. It has pretty interfaces and user friendly web applications. Apple is also a fantastic company, also rolling in the digital dough, bringing a new level of sexiness to the computer industry.
However, a good solid third of the applications available through a free google account do not work if you are using Apple's Safari (some of the google groups functions, G-chat, etc). When you try to open something the browser doesn't support you get an error message that assures you that they are working on making the application compatible.
I don't buy it. Not for a second.
If they wanted it to work, it would work by now. I'm not sure whose fault it is, but I'd venture to guess that Mr. William Gates and/or his minions might be sending threatening letters.
And in the interest of hashing out the true potential of any good 200X conspiracy theory, it's probably G-dub's fault in the end, no?
Document THAT, Michael Moore.....
[Edit: Steve Jobs is on the board of Google? The plot thickens......]
posted by renee 9:35 PM